Wednesday, September 28, 2005


Everything's a little swirly in my little corner of the universe these days. A feeling of slight unsettlement that is, surprisingly, not unpleasent.

I like to write in cryptic riddles.

I am not a "Type A" personality. I avoid confrontation whenever possible and have happily spent a life largely devoid of assertiveness. You may find these personality traits to be incongruous to an interest in poker, as passivity is rarely rewarded on the felt. And you'd be right, but there is a crucial diference.

Poker is a competition. In competition, I am fierce. The thing is, I've never viewed life as a competition. The corporate ladder has never been a destination. I rarely even think about it. While I have managed to pull myself solidly to the middle, it was never because of an intense drive to conquer the workplace. My promotions have been based entirely on my work, in which I've always taken pride, for myself, for my own satisfaction, rather than with an eye toward where it would get me.

Which brings me now to the fork in the road.

One trait I have always possessed is will. The times in my life when I have really wanted something, really NEEDED something, I have bent to the task with single-minded purpose. I have summoned, briefly, that assertiveness I usually lack.

And so I am compelled to do so again, not by outside forces, but by a rare inner drive. I'm jamming my foot into the closing door. I might come out of it with a fractured shin--and psyche--but I will not let the latch catch while I stand idly by, even if the morning line odds put me north of 20-1.

Because I have tapped an ambition, the very thought of which sends my head spinning and my dreams careening out of control. Most importantly, because I do not fear failing. Far more alarming is not doing anything as fortune whistles by.

Wish me luck.


At 2:27 PM, Blogger Huge Junk said...

Cryptic non-information giving bastard...

At 2:51 PM, Blogger stannum said...

Good luck there Mr. Speaker.

I didn't find the post as cryptic as some, but that is likely due to the fact that I identify with many of the traits you have described.

My interpretation may be in error though, so I look forward to the follow-up :).

At 2:55 PM, Blogger stannum said...

:s/longshot/sure thing/

At 4:07 PM, Blogger Julio said...

so you're finally going to finish up with all the sex change operations?

That takes a lot of... balls, oops, ah well, you'll have some soon!

At 6:12 PM, Anonymous Maudie said...

Mr. S. - good luck, hope we get to read the good news soon 8^)

At 8:33 PM, Blogger April said...

20/1, huh? I'd take that bet - have a good feeling about the horse. ;)

Good luck.

At 7:35 AM, Blogger Otter Chaos said...

OK, "luck"

If the will is strong enough, you probably won't need it though.

Use the Will, Force.

At 8:33 AM, Blogger BadBlood said...

Listen, a career in gay porn is just not worth it. Put your pants back on and go home.

All kidding aside, good luck with whatever you've alluded to.

At 8:33 AM, Anonymous fhwrdh said...

good luck, sir.

At 11:22 AM, Blogger Chad said...


Wait. Huh.

Good luck?

How's that? Does that one fit?

How about "Go get 'em!"?

This is tougher than it looks. Being this far in the dark, I mean.

Um. Um? UM!

Don't let the door hit your ass on the way out?

I suck at this game. Pick one and turn to page 35.


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